Living Life With Quiet Intent

Well, it’s been almost a year since I’ve last sat down with a keyboard and the need to turn my thoughts free to the internet.

This past year was a year that I found myself disconnecting from a lot of the world and focusing on improving the things in my life that I can control. We’re so connected now to every other human being on the planet that it can sometimes feel like the world in ending and that our lives are spinning out of control. This is somewhat true, in a sense, but it’s also a feeling that can be greatly exaggerated through a constant barrage of information, events, thoughts, and opinions to us through our phones, TV, and computers. This was getting to be overwhelming and for my own mental health I decided to start focusing on the only thing that’s in my control…. My Life.

While it’s true that not everything in one’s life can be under their control. There is a large part of it that is. I started focusing on allowing myself to live with a quiet intent. The intent focusing on being happy, being stable, being steady and being mindful. It’s taken me a long time to sort out exactly what this means but I think that I can put it in to proper words now.

Every day that I wake up I think about all of the good things that I have in my life. Instead of focusing on the crazy world events or other stresses in my world, I remind myself how much I am blessed enough to have. I have a great job, a roof over my head, food in my fridge, a great set of friends and family who are always there when I need, and a loving partner who is my biggest cheerleader and my loudest fan. I’ll then tell myself how I want to feel today. If I can’t be happy or ecstatic, I can at least try to be steady. Anything that I can’t control I will let go of. Most of these events won’t matter in 10 years, so why would I waste my energy on them now?

This way of being doesn’t mean that I won’t feel like the sky is falling again. Or that I won’t feel like screaming into the night. These are all healthy and valid emotions to have. But this has helps me to overcome these moments faster and to allow myself to focus on the things that are truly important to me. Such as myself, my friends, my family and my partner. It’s allowed me to cultivate a space where I’m able to allow people in while at the same time being able to listen to my heart and my soul when I need to take a step back and focus on myself for a while. It’s not a perfect system by any means but it has helped me to find a larger inner peace.

Going forward I will continue to focus on my happiness, mindfulness, love, living, and being steady.

I’m not going to be on this planet long enough to live any other way.